I think it’s finally settled into our bodies the reality of the loss of the ways we used to live. For better and for worse, our structures are in their final moments of collapse. Within that, there’s been a collapse, personally, of the way things were in my life. This year has taught me loss and grief that will live with me for the rest of my days. This year has revealed to me the ways I’ve used my shadows to hurt others and how I’ve created attachments out of fear. This year has taught me that our best kept illusions of community and family will no longer exist. It’s over and now we must reflect, change, imagine and build new ways of relating with each other. 2021 has tested my faith in love, my faith in myself and my faith in others.
~change of subject~
Some interesting things I’ve learned as of late, I’d like to share with you!
1. The New York Public Library has a new library building! It has the only free rooftop I believe, in NYC. The library is called the Stavros Niarchos Foundation Library . It’s a beautiful modern library with plenty of spaces to work indoors (masks on obvi) and if you take the elevator to the top floor, they have little coffee pop up before you walk through the doors that lead to their rooftop.
2. I learned that digitally, I hoard lots of screenshots of sidereal astrology, herbalism and relationship information I honestly don’t need to save. I had a deletion party with myself and a cup of perfect coffee a few nights ago. I also realized I haven’t been the best at archiving my photography work so I am doing a solid comb through of my files this week.
3. I learned that the faith I entrusted in the universe, in God and in my loving ancestors is noticed. I learned that my prayers and pleas for relief are tended.